While you were away Dad !! Winters came by

While you were away Dad !! Winters came by

Air was cold and water just froze,

I sat alone in bed, and no one kissed me good nigh…

While you were away Dad !!, Winters came by…

Last Sunday, I fell from the bike,

I looked around, but you were nowhere to be found,

I stood on my own, brushed the dirt from my thigh…

While you were away Dad !! Winters came by

A week before, I got my stars,

Class stood to clap and the report was hung in hall,

Teacher said, your Dad will have his head high…

I shivered and smiled, but you know,

While you were away Dad !! Winters came by…

Mom says, you are out in lands of torn,

Clowning day & night to keep us warm,

I know in my heart, that you are not shy, but

While you were away Dad !! Winters came by…

अलविदा कोई नही कहता, बस ऐसे ही चले जाते है

एक एक करके सब चले जाते है,
कुछ सुन कर कुछ कह कर चले जाते है दोस्त ।।

तन्हाई में क्या कहें, महफ़िलो में बहुत याद आते है,
एक एक करके सब चले जाते है दोस्त।।

कुछ को मौत तो कुछ को जिंदगी थका देती है,
तन्हाई में क्या कहें, महफ़िलो में बहुत याद आते है दोस्त ।।

अलविदा कोई नही कहता , बस ऐसे ही चले जाते है,
कुछ को मौत तो कुछ को जिंदगी थका देती है दोस्त ।।

पापा, ये जूता बहुत काटता है

पापा, ये जूता बहुत काटता है
सुबह शाम, सोते जागते, हर समय
ये जूता बहुत काटता है ।

जाने कब, कंहा ये जूता मैंने पहना था,
चाह कर भी उतार नहीं पाता हूँ,
पापा, ये जूता बहुत काटता है ।

मुझसे कहा था, "तू बड़ा है ।", इसलिए पहनना होगा ये जूता,
मोज़ो पर मोज़े चढ़ाये मैंने, पर फिर भी,
पापा ये जूता बहुत काटता है ।

to be continued....

आज चाय में फिर चीनी नहीं है

आज चाय में फिर चीनी नहीं है ,
उफ़, ये दिन फिर से वहीं है।
उड़ कर आ जाता है रोज़ ये दिन,
रात भर सोता नहीं तारे गिन गिन।

आज चाय में फिर चीनी नहीं है ,
अहा, थिरकती रही उम्मीद, थमी नहीं है।
बारिशों में भीगी, भाग कर आई
गोदी में मेरी सिमट, ऐसे ही सोयी।

आज चाय में फिर चीनी नहीं है ,
हश्श, मेले में रोशनी कहीं कहीं है।
छन छन के आती रही चाँदनी ,
शहर आज गर्म नहीं है।

आज चाय में चीनी सही है ,
उंह, ये मीठी फिर भी नहीं है।
उठ रही है भाप बहुत देर से,
चाय अब ठंडी नहीं है।

आयो कृष्ण अब घर चलते हैं ।

चंद सिक्के हाथ में लिए चला जाता हूँ
आज  कुछ खुशिया खरीद लाता हूँ ।

सोच रहा हूँ बहुत रोज़ से तेरे बारे में
आज कुछ देर दर पर दस्तक दिए आता हूँ ।

 चंद अल्फ़ाज़ों को ही लिख़ लेता हूँ
आज ये ख़त तुझे भेज देता हूँ ।

थामे  हुए बहुत वक़्त हो चला है
आज ये पैमाने ख़ाली कर आता हूँ ।


चंद लोग दिखे दुनिया के मेले में
आज उन लोगो से मिल आता हूँ ।

बैठा हूँ बहुत रोज़ से इंतज़ार में
आज़ कुछ देर मैं भी सो जाता हूँ ।

चंद सिक्के ये बहुत  भारी हो चले हैं, कृष्ण अब तुम ही संभालो
चंद अल्फ़ाज़ कंहा कुछ बयां कर पाएंगे, कृष्ण अब तुम ही कुछ कहो ।

इंतज़ार बहुत हो चुका, आयो कृष्ण अब चलते हैं
कुछ नए ख़त तुम्हारी लेखनी से ही लिख लेते हैं ।

आगे मेले में बहुत भीड़ होगी, आयो कृष्ण अब चलते हैं
कुछ नयी खुशियां रास्ते में ही बिखेर देते हैं ।

अायो कृष्ण अब चलते हैं । सिक्के, अल्फ़ाज़, मुलाकात बहुत हो गया ।
आयो कृष्ण अब घर चलते हैं । आयो कृष्ण अब घर चलते हैं॥

But You Didn't

Today, I happen to read this poem by Merrill Glass. The message behind this poem is not to wait to tell the important people in your life how you feel about them, but do it right away. You never know if you'll get the chance again.

I happen to find following images for each stanza of the poem.

Remember the time you lent me your car and I dented it?

I thought you'd kill me...

But you didn't.

Remember the time I forgot to tell you the dance was

formal, and you came in jeans?

I thought you'd hate me...

But you didn't.

Remember the times I'd flirt with

other boys just to make you jealous, and

you were?

I thought you'd drop me...

But you didn't.

There were plenty of things you did to put up with me,

to keep me happy, to love me, and there are

so many things I wanted to tell

you when you returned from

Vietnam...

But you didn't

 

 
 

 

 

 

तुझे याद कर फिर लौट रहा हूँ मैं।

आधी रात फिर उठ बैठा हूँ मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर सिमट रहा हूँ मैं।

किसने क्या क्यूँ कहा भूल रहा हूँ मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर झूल रहा हूँ मैं।

अकेले ही सबसे मिल रहा हूँ मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर खिल रहा हूँ मैं।

सब कुछ जान कर भी अनजान बन रहा हूँ मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर इन्सान बन रहा हूँ मैं।

गलत औ सही के पार उस मैदान पर पहुंच गया हूँ  मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर लौट रहा हूँ मैं।
तुझे याद कर फिर लौट रहा हूँ मैं।

पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा

पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा 
स्कूल गया तो मैं बड़ा हो जायूँगा ,
फिर आपकी गोदी कैसे आऊंगा ,
कैसे उंगली पकड़ आपकी मैं बाज़ार जायूँगा ,
पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा !!!

पापा मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा 
स्कूल गया तो मैं भी रीति सीख जायूँगा ,
स्वाभिमान के बहाने दूर चला जायूँगा ,
कैसे फिर आपके हाथ से रोटी के निवाले खाऊंगा ,
पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा !!!

पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा 
स्कूल गया तो ये संसार वास्तव हो जायेगा ,
आपकी कहानियों का राजकुमार एक प्रतियोगी हो जायेगा ,
किसी अनजान दौड़ का चूहा या फिर किसी दीवार की ईंट बन चिन जायेगा ,
कैसे फिर आपके सीने पर  सर रख सो पायूँगा 
पापा, मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा !!!

पापा , मैं स्कूल नहीं जायूँगा 
 मेरे बचपन को बचपना ही बने रहने दो ,
स्कूल एक साज़िश है, बड़ा होना - ये कैसी ख्वाहिश है ,
स्कूल एक भुलावा है, ये संसार छलावा है  ,
मुझे मेरे बचपन में जीने दो, कुछ भी करो पर मुझेअपनी गोदी में ही सोने दो ,
पापा , मैं स्कूल  नहीं जायूँगा , स्कूल गया तो मैं बड़ा हो जायूँगा !!!…

कृष्ण कहता है

कृष्ण कहता है - मोह न कर
पर जब तू इठलाता है, पालने में
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है ।

कृष्ण कहता है - संसार मिथ्या है
पर जब तू चलता है, थामे ऊँगली मेरी,
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है ।

कृष्ण कहता है - योगक्षेमं वहाम्यम्
पर जब मैं पहुचता हूँ, घर थक कर,
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है

कृष्ण कहता है - निष्काम कर्म कर
पर जब देखता हूँ, महीने में खाली जेब
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है।

कृष्ण कहता है - भविष्य की फ़िक्र न कर, 
पर जब पाता हूँ तुझे देर रात में भी पढ़ते हुए 
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है।

कृष्ण कहता है - शांतचित्त से समर्पण कर 
पर जब पहुचता हूँ मैं, हाथ जोड़ कर,
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा चला जाता है ।

कृष्ण कहता था - साथ रहेगा वो सदा 
अब जब भी चाहता हूँ मैं, भाग निकलना,
न जाने तब कृष्ण कँहा से चला आता है।

कृष्ण कहता था - तू मुझमे आ मिलेगा
आज मैं आ गया हूँ बैकुण्ठ के द्वार पर
वो देखो कृष्ण आ रहा है। वो देखो कृष्ण आ रहा है।

।।इति श्री।।

सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ

सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ
ये ज़मीं आसमां, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

तुमने जो भी कहा, हमने जो भी सुना
वो सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ
ये ज़मीं आसमां, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

ये हँसी और ख़ुशी, या नमी आँखो की
बस धुँआ है धुँआ, सब धुँआ है धुँआ।

तुमने जो भी कहा, हमने जो भी सुना
वो सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

ये जिंदगी ख्वाब  है, या ख्वाब है जिंदगी
सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

जो कहानी कही उस खुदा ने कभी, जज़्बात में है बंधी ये खुदाई कहीं 
मेरी नज़रों में वो सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ। 

सब धुँआ है धुँआ, बस धुँआ है धुँआ
ये ज़मीं आसमां, बस धुँआ है धुँआ।

मेरी दिल्ली को मेरा सलाम है

थोड़ा झंझट है थोड़ा बबाल है, 
इधर उधर का सबको ख्याल है, 
मेरी दिल्ली तो एक कमाल है ।

कुछ आधा है तो कुछ अधूरा है
कहीं कहीं ही कुछ पूरा है
थोड़ा किस्सा है, थोड़ी कहानी है
मेरी दिल्ली में एक रवानी है ।

 सब कुछ दिखता है, कुछ भी बिकता है 
हल्का हल्का भुनता औ धुनता है
मेरी दिल्ली में कभी कुछ नहीं रुकता है ।

भीनी सी सुबह, महकी सी शाम है
अजब सा चहुँ ओर घाम है
मेरी दिल्ली एक ताम झाम है।

खुदा की तारीफ है , राम की बलिहारी है 
हर गली में राधा-श्याम की छटा न्यारी है 
मेरी दिल्ली में हर ख़ास -ओ- आम है
मेरी दिल्ली को मेरा सलाम है। 

मेरी दिल्ली को मेरा सलाम है। 

घड़ी-साज़ - Horologist

I met him yesterday evening. He was sitting at his humble makeshift counter shop at the sector market. While I was waiting at his counter, to get battery changed for my wrist-watch, my mind started to notice, the calm, the smoothness with which he was dealing with customers.

He must be around 50, his voice and his composure is the written proof. He fixed the chain length for a boy, boy ask,"Uncle, kitney paise hue ? (How much to pay ?)", he responded with same depth, in which he told me to wait, "dus rupuye beta (Rs 10/- only son)"..After which he took my watch, took out clippers to open the dial at the back, 1st try, didn't budge, 2nd trial...no success....then he took out other set of tools...tried again...no luck...'hmmmm...he said'....

3 failed attempts, in front of customer...I started to think...how will he face me now...his job is to open...and with failures !!! at this age...what's he gonna say...?

Well...he said, "beta lagta hai ye jaam ho gaya hai, isko kal din mein dekhte hain, thoda oiling karni padegi..abhi raat bhi ho gayi hai...kal din mein le aana...mujhko bhi saaf dikhega"...(Son, it seems, the join is bit rusty, bring it tomorrow during the day, I will oil the join a bit and then it should budge...no worries, I will fix it for sure tomorrow...during the day I can see much clearly".

I listened, I listen the calmness and sooth in the tone, the clarity in the voice and the belief in tomorrow. 

I saw him getting small money for fixing time for others.There he is smiling for each coin...and here I am still finding happiness in the ...what the heck !!!...

There he is sitting in hot weather of NCR, in front of pavements with his wooden makeshift counter, with a small wardrobe...with calm face...belief in tomorrow...and hope in eyes at the age of 50...and here I am standing...all worried...for thousands of lame expectations of family, friends, colleagues, superior...lord and myself...

There he is sitting calmly on his wooden broken chair managed by brick on one side, smile on his face...deep wrinkles around his eyes...and here am I thinking about how to and what to and when to...always in hurry...always thinking...2 steps ahead...where is pleasure...when will I be delighted...

what the heck...the thought machine kick me to my sense...no more...thoughts...no more worries...kick the stress...breathe ...respire...inhale....that's life...

from now on...

I will Inhale....I will Inhale deep....respire...breathe and will live long...that's what I am destined for....Live Long..enjoy and be happy !!!

!! Raat lambi ho teri bhi itni, ki fir subeh na ho !!

Don't ask me why I wrote this, I was feeling uneasy from so long...I desire to write something different, but much has happened in last 2 months that only the following came to the post...

काश कि अब सुबेह ना हो, काश कि अब मुझे नींद ना आये,
काश कि अब बारिश ना हो, काश कि अब मुझे याद ना आये
काश कि अब खुदा खुद को भूल जाये, काश कि अब मौत आ जाये
और काश कि अबसे तू भी ना सोये, रात लंबी हो तेरी भी इतनी, कि फिर कभी सुबेह ना हो

For those who know hindi, but cannot read the script...

Kaash ki ab subeh na ho, Kaash ki ab mujhe neend na aaye,
Kaash ki ab baarish na ho, kaash ki ab mujhe yaad na aaye,
kaash ki ab khuda khud ko bhool jaye, kaash ki ab maut aa jaye,
Aur kaash ki absey tu bhi na soye, Raat lambhi ho teri bhi itni, ki fir kabhi subeh na ho.

For those who donot know hindi, here is the translation

May the morning never happens now, May I don't sleep any more now,
May the rain never happens now, May I never remember you now,
May the Lord Loses himself now, May the death comes now,
And May from now on you also do not sleep, Your night should also become so long, that the morning never happens from now on...

Yun he nahin ruk gaya mein

Bus yun he nahin ruk gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin dil he dil mein darr gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin charon or se simat gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin aandhiyon mein chup gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin toofaano ke aage se hut gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin khuda ke aage jhuk gaya mein,
Bus yun he nahin raahon mein bhatak gaya mein,
Kisi ne kabhi kuch bhi nahin kaha tha mujhe,
kisi ne kabhi kahin to toka nahin tha mujhe,
kisi ne muskura kar kabhi nahin jhidka tha mujhe,
shaant hoon kyunki chahta hoon mein bhi dekhna,
shaant hoon kyunki chahta hoon mein bhi rukna,
shaant hoon kyunki chahta hoon mein bhi muskurana,
shaant hoon kyunki chahta hoon mein bhi khojna,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai meri jindagi per,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai meri muskaan per,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai mere khud ke samay per,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai mere khuda per,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai tum per,
aakhir mera bhi haq hai tum per....

Tripping Over - Concluding - Soaked in Delight...

As we moved towards the fire with joy in our hearts, divinity in our minds, there was a sense of detachment which was growing inside me and something started knocking inside my psyche, telling me to be happy and enjoy the joy of being Alive. The clouds above us were conspiring something unknown, and "Lord of the Flies" was delighted to note us being there.
We all sat on the chairs beautifully arranged around the Fire blowing hot in the center, but soon we all realized that there is need of somebody to direct the proceedings and break the silence.
And 'coz everybody knows it by heart that when Hirdu is near, There is nothing to fear; I stood up and as I spoke to the crowd, ppl followed as if in trance. I started by sharing few jokes and intricacies of using the phrase "How do you do?" ;) and hows & whys of knowing too much of paper work in US of A ;)
During the talks, I realized that here too people fear sharing anything when given 2 mins of Fame to say anything. Anyhow even then there was sheer & clear demonstration of involving anybody in trance and bring out whatever is desired ;)
Anyhow more wud have happened that night, but as always THE LORD has different plans for me. My trance was broken by the on sought of Thunder, shower, and Rain.
People ran to look for shade, 'ut Me and my friend was clear in thoughts, we were destined to enjoy the delight of being soaked, so we handed over our gadgets to another friend of ours and started walked in the rain for another 1 hour.
We were drenched with joy, soaked in happiness till the last trickle of soul and delight was oozing out of us. The night was getting darker, and we both continued to walk with wet soiled shoes, without any fear of being observed. The joy on my friend's face was shining, and our laughter echoed in the jungle.
People thought it was 'coz of the fluid gulped down the throat, but in reality it was 'coz of the fluid raining from heavens above. The night was the gift of blessings bestowed upon us two, to enjoy few moments out in jungle, wherein only the "paranoid survive" and fittest rise above in Natural selection.
We asked few others to join us and feel the fire being lighted in shower, but they were afraid of letting their souls free from norms of society even for a minute.
Anyhow, we two are now type-casted for rest of similar trips we assume, but who cares ? Being soaked in Delight is above all experiences. Being free from definitive boundaries of curtained culture and letting the sorrows wash away in the blessings being rained is out of the world experience. As the cold droplets touched our foreheads, the glory of being free forever was itched upon us.
Whatever happened next morning, the breakfast, the packup, the lunch and the return journey was just another ritual...
Finally, the final word,
"Sagar her roz Sahil ka rukh yun he nahin kiya karta, Darakht ke neeche baith her roz koi akela yun he nahin roya karta,
Koi to her roz kehta hai kuch to usse jaker tanhai mein, Nahin to Khuda her roz mere saath jaam yun he nahin piya karta"
Translated for Non Hindi Guys and Gals
"Sea shall not face the shore everyday without any reason, Somebody shall not sit under the tree and weep alone everyday without any reason,
Somebody must be saying something to HIM in solitude Everyday, Else the LORD HIMSELF shall not sip a peg with me Everyday.

Myth or Fact or Rule or Guideline. (MFRG)

Here are few of Myths or Facts or Rules or Guidelines which flow over whenever we exchange notes over smoking the burning desire or while sipping the divine potion sitting with friends.
I do not remember where or when I heard them, or how many of them are coined by me...but ya most of the time, all of these thoughts are respected.
Lets have MFRGs of Smokers community first ;). Almost all of these are followed as norms across continents without any discrimination for cast, creed, culture, color or gender knowingly or unknowingly.

• We shall never light 3 cigarettes at a time with the same matchstick or the flame of lighter. Reason: Its been said, that the person who smokes the 3rd one, has a shortened life ;)
• So even if we have last match-stick, the group shall light 1 or 2 with it, blow of the fire and light the 3rd one with already lighted cigarette.
• In  this case if the guy who is lighting the cigarettes forgets the rule, then as a token he brings the lighted stick again to his own cigarette to have a feel of 4 lights or the 1st guy and the 3rd guy exchange there cigarettes.
• In case of lighter, the flame shall be put out after 2 or four cigarettes are lighted at the same time.
• It's been a known observed fact that, people have walked kms even when it's raining cats & dogs in search of light for the cigarette they have. Similarly, none had been observed to do the same when they have the matchbox but no cigarettes. These ppl have waited for cigarette to arrive. But nobody has waited for the light to arrive, they have walked to reach it. :)
• Anybody who is smoking, or known to smoke, shall provide the light to anybody who has cigarette in his/her hand or mouth, no matter he/she is known or not. It's been observed as promise to every smoker, that each lighted cigarette shall bring light to there hearts, though there might smoke in there lungs, but the spirit shall always be of being alive.
• Arrey Jigar mein aag hai, tabhi to hum dhuyan dete hai, woh kya jiyenge, jinmey iska jigara he nahin :)
• If a reputed or respected smoker is ever asked by anybody (no matter, he/she is friend or foe, known or unknown) for an extra cigarette, He/She shall always provide one if he has more than one cigarette. Incase one has last cigarette of the pack, then its been observed that the requester and requestee shares the smoking desire. This is done coz every chain smoker knows what it feels like, when one feels to have a smoke and there is none in the pocket.

Now lets have few for our fellows who think alike, smile alike & drink alike. Without any discrimination for the spirit in the glass, without any discrimination of larger liquid (water, soda or coke) most of these are followed or known to all.

• You know why we feel light after a round of Beer - The reason is that beer has lot of dissolved air in it, it's a aerated drink, more over as beer is gulped down the throat, it increases the volume of the belly, which is acted upon by phenomenon of buoyancy, whose effect is added up coz of dissolved air under pressure...and we feel light thereon...
• After opening, bottle of anytype of alcohol should be finished as soon as possible. Since alcohol absorbs water, it keeps on sucking water from the water vapour inside the bottle and get diluted, so longer it's kept, more dilution, thus loss of taste, moreover, it's been observed that alcohol evaporates.
• The known fact in here is that rate of evaporation or dilution of alcohol in the room is exponentially proportional to number of Roomies :)
• No matter what happens first peg is always made by pouring liquor in the glass and then its filled with the larger fluid (Air implying Neat, Water, Soda or any other drink)
• As soon the glasses are raised with high spirit soaked in joy of sharing the sense of togetherness, and room echoes with "Cheers!!", no body keeps the glass back on the table before sipping atleast one sip from it.
• Jokes, senti songs, or stories are always applauded by raising the Glass. Nobody keeps his/her glass for clapping. High fives are also popular for this.
• "On the Rocks " - strictly means pouring the divine liquid over the ice cubes, not the vice verse. Adding the cubes in the undisturbed fluid dilutes the spirit of joy ;) where pouring it over the rocks makes fire to flow over desire.

I know you must be having more of these MFRGs to share...so post them :)

Yun he nahin

I am editing this post just coz BnB asked for the meanings; so here it goes...ab maarna mut mujhe...coz today I am in comedy mood.... :)

Khuda yun he nahin khud ki khudayi mein mushgool rehta hai,
kuch to khauff-jada hai jo abhi tak dojakh ke darwaze khule rakhta hai.

Zannat mein farishton ki rihayish hua karey, humko kya ferk padta hai,
Yahan to her aata jata hamarey zakhmon per namak rakhta hai,

kisi roz to aamna samna hoga hamara bhi uss-se qayamat se pehle,
Nahin to sabhi dekhenge ki Qayamat wali subeh kon sharamsaar rehta hai.

Meanings, deep meanings and deeper than the deep meanings :)

Lord is Lost in HIS own heavenly heaven for a reason,
He seems to be shivering with fear still, thus keeps the doors to hell.

Angels might be roaming and populating the Heaven; how does it matters to me,
In here, every "Tom **ck harry" smears his share of salt over my wounds to keep them alive,

Someday Me and HE shall meet face to face before the Judgement Day,
Else we all shall see, whose face is down in shame over the morning of Judgement day.

Now you all know, that I am not been able to do justice with what I desired to say when I translated it in English :(

But I hope I have literally conveyed the meaning...

Now we shall go for deep meaning :)

Style Next

Long time back read a poem. Yesternight while roaming around the beach during a half hour interval granted by Continuous rains in chennai around midnight, I tried to copy the style :)

Shall post a translation and since it seems incomplete to me, I shall try to complete it. Enjoy !!

chinghaad-ta samudra kyun,
fufkaarti pawan yun kyun,
aakash hai vicharta,
kiya hai ye srijun kyun,

baras baras barasti,
kadak kadak kadakti,
aati hai us or se,
aaj phir kyun padamini,

bujha hai ye hriday kyun,
shithil hain ab rakt kyun,
prashnn hai kiss baat per
vishwas ker aur bandh le,
khada hai woh dwar per,

!! Devoid of Soul !!

February 10, 2005 : He is so happy today. He was supposed to return in July, but today he is boarding flight back to India. He has to attend his friend's wedding on Feb 14, 2005.

February 14, 2005: Today His friend "Anand" is getting married to "Reshmi". No Hiccups, nothing. A simple Marriage Function it is. Arranged marriage it is. Today is the first day He saw "Reshmi". Cute, confident, charming She is. Jovial, juvenile & just she is. There is always smile on her face and twinkle in her eyes, and dimple on her cheeks is just amazing. Anand's happiness is beyond words. Anand is a normal, well settled, foky guy.

February 17, 2005 : He is flying back to US to finish his pending assignment.

March 2nd, 2005: Anand & Reshmi hath sent pics of there Honeymoon to him. Today He has made his mind to get married as soon as possible. He is now planning all the affairs.

April 11, 2005: Anand and Reshmi are shifting to Chennai. He is so happy to have a couple Anand and Reshmi in Chennai

May 12, 2005: Today is His Birthday. He called up Reshmi, but her mobile was down, He calls up Anand. Anand tells him, "Reshmi is ill, She is in ICU at Apollo." He is shocked. Reshmi caught some infection in her liver and now facing severe jaundice.

July 12, 2005: He is back in India today. He went to Reshmi's home to meet her. Reshmi is still jovial. She is bed ridden since May. She has Lost all the glow from her eyes. Doctors have lost hope. They are unable to find the remedy for her continous fever and other ailments. He is puzzled. Anand seems all lost. It's not even 6 months.

Rest days in July : Every Evening He visits Reshmi. She loves Roses and Jasmine, He shall make sure that he carries at least one of them every day to her. Anand has taken without pay leaves from office. He is totally shattered. They shall spend nights talking to each other. His instincts are telling him, that Reshmi doesnot have much time left. He felt, She is waiting for somebody from so long. There seems a Vacuole in her life. She seems to be loosing grip on life but her smile is still there.

Early August : He is now afraid of his instincts. He and Anand shall cook dinner together for Reshmi everyday. Both are trying so hard to keep Reshmi happy. But sometime her eyes will simply pierce him down his heart and whenever that happens He is bound to skip a heartbeat.

August 19, 2005: Rakhsha Bandhan - Today He decided not to go to meet Reshmi and Anand. He has always been un-happy about this day and never wanted anybody to see his tears.

August 20, 2005 - He met Reshmi again, She is smiling today, all of a sudden there was glow on her face today. They all went to Barista after such a long time together. Anand as usual took "Cafe Latte". Reshmi and He both took sips from bitter "Espresso Italiano". He knows they share some feel together. It's his instincts and it's her body thats decaying.

September 3, 2005 - Anand & Reshmi today visited His apartment. Reshmi was coming for the first time and He has promised that he shall not hide anything in the apartment. She wanted to see his aparment in RAW. There were posters on the wall, butts here and there, books lying in shelfs, on floor, in kitchen even in shower. A shelf full of show pieces. Reshmi kept on smiling. The glow of Barista was back again. But today his instincts, his sense were predicting otherwise. He dared not to speack anything about it.

September 3rd, 2005 11PM: Reshmi took the Cigarette for the first time, Anand was a chain smoker like him, but left. But today Reshmi asked Him to light one for everybody, with the thought "May it Brings light to our life", they kept exchanging the cig.

September 4th, 2005, 1:00 AM: Reshmi's eyes are about to betray her. She is shivering with cold. Anand is calling for Apollo Emergency. He is holding her hand. She wanted to say something, her voice is low, he pulls himself near to her face. She kisses him on his cheek and said, "Good Bye, May you find LOVE !!". Her Voice is breaking, He wanted to know, "How and Why".

Anand is still on phone, Reshmi is no more and He is again devoid of Soul

Kyunki aaj se akela hai....

Aaj Masjid ke darwaze phir khuda mila hume,
poocha usne mujhse, phir kuch nahin, aaj bhi,
tukur tukur dekhta raha mujhe,
aasoon uski aakh mein bhi the, aur mere bhi.

baitha woh mere paas kuch der,
koshish ki hum dono ne muskuraane ki,
jaane kon si husrat thi hum dono mein,
roya tha woh bhi, aur mein bhi.

aaya tha na jaane kon aaj savere uske darwaze per,
jiske sawalon se sehma tha woh,
koshish to maine bhi ki thi samjhane ki usse,
per aaj tanha tha woh bhi, aur mein bhi.

kuch der mein he bikhar gaya woh,
mere kun-dhe per tha sir uska,
shayad aaj ke baad, hum dono saath nazar aayein,
kyunki aaj se akela hai woh bhi, aur mein bhi.