Am I like Vodka ?

Am I like Vodka ? Don't know ! Some quiz result at http://quizilla.com/

Prolix of an empty brain. : Sharmaji

Prolix of an empty brain. : Sharmaji

Life is one big smile :)

Prolix of an empty brain. : Dil Kya Karey

Prolix of an empty brain. : Dil Kya Karey

What a song !! Took a print, Went down to the Ground floor with a pack of Ciggarrettes and roamed for an hour on the streets of Santa Clara - The Village in California

Unaddressed Lyrics

These are lyrics from 2 different songs which I heard in some TV plays. I don't know why I hum these whenever my mind is free. They seemed to be rendered deep down my unconsious now.

Here these are.

1) Manzil ne di aawaz bandhe saaz aa gaye, tere naam ka dushala liye dur pe aa gaye
Translation: On hearing the call from my destination, I arrived at thy doorstep, with blanket of your name and packed instruments.
Origin : Unknown, Some TV play on Doordarshan - National Broadcaster, India.

2) Jaane ye Kaisi Zameen hai, koi patta daal pe nahin hai.
Translation: Don't know, what sought of land is this, there is not a single leaf on the branch.
Origin : TV Movie "School Bus", on Doordarshan - National Broadcaster, India.


The first song was sung in the play, when the girl who works in a theater leaves the house of her married sister, coz of sexual advances of her brother-in-law.

The second song was sung by the protaganist of the movie when he was doing a group outing with his school mates. The sorroundings were pretty, and the heroine of the movie was look alike of Sushmita Sen ;-)

Abhivyakti - Hindi Magazine online

Abhivyakti

This is website I visit often, whenever I feel like to read something written in Hindi.

It updates daily with stories, poems, novels and much more stuff.

Worth hitting for those who wanna read Hindi.

Here is the link http://www.abhivyakti-hindi.org/

Calvin the incredible - I also demand SEX EDUCATION ;-)

!! I am creating space for my Chair !!

Sometimes people ask me

Why the heck I am thinking so deep sometimes ?
What I am looking for ?
What I desire from this life ?
What exactly am I doing ?

Here are the answers

I am creating space for my chair.
I am looking for my own sky.
I desire to stand on my own Earth.
I am designing my own personal sphere.

Bandeh - Black Friday - Indian Ocean

Here is the lyrics of Bandeh - Black Friday - Indian Ocean

Lyrics are by Piyush Mishra - Piyush you did great job again !!

Shall translate it in English soon and post that too...

All songs of the album "Black Friday" are deep, and I am still unsure of what makes me more senti - the music or the lyrics.

"Arey ruk jaa
Arey tham jaa

Arey ruk jaa re bandeh
Arey tham jaa re bandeh
Ki kudrat hus padegi ho...

Arey neendein hain zakhmi
Arey sapnay hain bhookhay
Ki karvat phut padegi ho...

Arey mandir yeh chup hain
Arey masjid yeh gumsum
Ibaadat thak padegi ho...

Samay ki laal aandhi
Kabristaan ke rastey
Arey lathpath chalegee ho...

Kisey kafir kahegaa
Kisey kaayar kahega
Teri kab tak chalegi...

Yeh unndhi chot teri
Kabhi ki sookh jaati
Magar ab pak chalegi"

!! Jab chali Thandi hava !!

Heard this song several times before I heard the remix of it.

Whenever I heard the original, There was pain and sorrow involved.

The remix was wonderful, It sounded like echoeing the Joy in Seperation, as if it is celebrating the pain, which seemed novel.

So folks as usual here is hindi and english translation of the same.

Hindi Lyrics are from http://www.cs.wisc.edu/~navin/india/songs/

Jab chalii Tha.nDii havaa, jab uThii kaalii ghaTaa

mujhako ai jaan-e-vafaa tum yaad aae

zi.ndagii kii daastaa.n, chaahe kitanii ho ha.nsii.nbin tumhaare kuchh nahii.n,

bin tumhaare kuchh nahii.nkyaa mazaa aataa sanam,

aaj bhuulese kahii.ntum bhii aajaate yahii.n, tum bhii aajaate yahii.n

ye bahaare.n ye fizaa, dekhakar o dilaruba

ajaane kyaa dil ko huaa, tum yaad aayejab chalii ...

ye nazaare ye samaa, aur phir itane javaa.N

haaye re ye mastiyaa.N, haaye re ye mastiyaa.N

aisaa lagataa hai.n mujhe, jaise tum nazadiik ho

is chaman se jaan-e-jaa.n, is chaman se jaan-e-jaa.n

sun ke usakii sadaa, dil dha.Dakataa hai.n meraa

aaj pahalese sivaa tum yaad aaejab chalii ...

English Translation

Whenever cool breeze blows, whenever black clouds flows

I get the thoughts of you, O my beloved-who-is-more-loyal-than-life.
The saga of life might be as pleasurable as it can be,

but without you it's nothing, but without you it's nothing.

It would have been unimaginable fun, if by any chance,

you would have arrived here, you would have arrived here.

This spring and the nature around, I don't know what,

happened to my heart, that it's making me to remember you.

These sights and the feel, they are so young,

and Oh...all these pleasures...oh...all these pleasures,

It feels like to me, as if you are nearby here or there,

In these lavish pastures O my beloved,

My heart loses a beat, whenever I hear thy call,

I don't know why, today I am thinking more about you.

Whenever cool breeze blows, whenever black clouds flowsI get the thoughts of you, O my beloved-who-is-more-loyal-than-life.

Questions and No Answers: Ignorance is Power?

Questions and No Answers: Ignorance is Power?

That is what I waana say sometime. Seems like Sandeep got there before me.

I am still waiting, hoping....

You promised that thy shall come back, I am still waiting, hoping.....
You promised that thy shall bring my love, I am still waiting, hoping....
You promised that thy shall sing for me, I am still waiting, hoping....
You promised that thy shall listen from me, I am still waiting, hoping....
You promised that thy shall keep smiling, I am still waiting, hoping....
You promised that thy shall call me, I am still waiting, hoping.....
You promised that thy shall forgive me, I am still waiting, hoping...

!! Sanam Teri Kasam !!

Kitne bhi tu ker le Sitam, hus hus ke sahenge hum
Ye pyar na hoga kum, Sanam Teri Kasam

So folks, doesn't matter what this life brings on, ye pyar na hoga kum

For guys and gals who are not so comfortable with hindi here is the translation of the theme,

"No matter what all cruelities and brutalities you bring down onto me, I shall always be smiling,
This love shall never die, not even a pinch be lost, this I vow on you."

Constantine

Gotta go folks !! Show time

This is a sneakpeak to HELL

!! Aaj Phir !!

Aaj Phir usko dekha khidki se baher jhankte hue,
Ek ajeeb si aas liye jhaank rahin thi uski aankhen,
khidi uske dafter (office) ki hai, aur door talak dikhte hain usko hari bhari vaadi,
shayad mann kerta hoga uska bhi ki kood jaye uss khidki and ud ker gum ho jaye,

Per shayad baandh diye hain pankh uske bhi,
aakhon mein aas liye,
dil mein ek pyaas liye,
phira karta hai woh office ki gallery mein,
anjaan se logon ko "hi hui" kehta hai,
na jaane kyun ab kewal muskurata rehta hai,
kabhi kabhi aasmaan ko dekhta hai aur phir muskurata hai,
Khuda se na jaane kab ka bair hai uska,
usi ko ulhana deta rehta hai,
aakhir chahta kya hai woh,
kabhi kabhi bahut saara khaana ghanton banata hai aur phir kuch hi niwale kha ker chuk jaata hai
aankhen bhari rehti hai aajkal,
soch liya hai usne bhi ki bhag jayega,
kisi ke haath nahin aayega,
log milte hain, muskurate hai, phir milna chahte hain,
kabhi kabhi usko lagta hai ki aakhir kyun woh bhagna chahta hai,
itna to kisi mahapurush ko bhi nahin milta janam bhar mein,
jitna usne paa liya bus kuch hi barson mein
Per shayad hai usko intezar un kuch palon ka jinme woh
baith sake chain se aise neem ke ped ki chanv mein
jo ho nadiya kinare,
meelon door tak na aati ho awaz kissi rail gaadi ki,
shaant sa baitha ho din bher,
bhook lagne per paas mein hi kahin se do roti aur pyaz mill jaye,
aur chain se woh so jaye,

aur chain se woh so jaye.

Ye parda hata do, Jara mukhda dikha do !!

so todays list

Ye Parda Hata do, Jara Mukhda dikha do, Hum pyar karne waale hain koi Gair Nahin,
Dil cheez hai kya jana, Ye Jaan bhi tumhari hai,
Ye chand sa roshan Chehra, Julfon ka rang sunhera,
Jab chaye mera jadoo, koi bach na paye,
Jungalee - Chahe koi mujhe jungalee kahe,

Billy Joel - We didn't start the fire,
Who the Fuck is Alice ?
Do you Remember the time,

Hothon se choo lo tum,
Salamein Ishq ..
Shayad Meri Shaadi ka khayal,
Hare Rama Hare Krishna - Dum maaro dum
Lawaris - Apni to jaise Taise, Thodi Aise Ya waise Kut Jayegi,
Kabhi Kabhi Mere Dil Mein Khayal aata hai,
Ye teri aankhen jhuki jhuki,
Ye din to aata hai ek din jawani mein,


Chalo fir Lemme hear now

!!Tujhe jaana hai to ja, Teri marzi mera kya !!

Today the day started pretty slowly, slept till 9 AM and thus was late to office, But still there was no hurry or no want to be in office.


In office listened to all the songs I wanted to hear from a long time.

Here is the list for the quick readers.

Breathless - Koi jo mila to mujhe aisa lagta tha,
Breathless - Tere khayalon se mehki si meri Tanhayi hai,
Mohd. Rafi - O meri Mehbooba, Mehbooba Mehbooba, Tujhe jaana hai to ja, teri marzi mera kya.
Bali Brahmabhatt - Dekh ke Kudiye Teri height Mujhe kuch Hone laga.
Euphoria - Maiyeri....
Euphoria - Dhoom Pichuk Dhoom,
Euphoria - Kabhi aana Tu meri Gali,
Euphoria - Mera Mantra,
Kisna - Woh Kisna Hai,
Kisna - My wish come true,
Sagar - Chehra hai ya Chand khila hai,

Continuing

Tere Mere beech mein Kaisa Hai ye bandhan ...
Solah Baras ki baali umer ko salam...
DCH - Tanhayi....Tanhayi....
Ruth ker humse Kahin jo chale jayoge...
Jaane woh kaise log the jinke...
Lakhon hain nighahon mein, Jindagi ki rah mein,
Hai apna dil to awara...
Her fikr ko dhooyein mein udata chala gaya
Ek ladki Bheegi Bhagi si..
Mere Sapnon ki raani kab aayegi tu,
Ude Jab Jab zulfein teri
Boojh Mera kya naam re, nadi kinare ganv re....
Dekhne Mein bhola hai dila ka salona, bumbai se aaya hai....
Pal bher ke liye koi hume pyar ker le
Indian Ocean - Black Friday - Bandeh
Indian Ocean - Black Friday - Badshah in Jail
Murder - Bheegay Hoth Tere
Lekur Hum Deewana Dil Firtein Hain Manjil Manjil
Waada Na Tod
Choti Si umer Mein Lag gaya rog
Leke Pehla Pehla Pyar
Kabhi Aar Kabhi Paar
Bhool Gayi Sab kuch Yaad Nahin Ab Kuch
Saraswati Chandra - Chod de saari duniya kisi ke liye
Saraswati Chandra - Chandan sa Badan Chanchal Chitwan
Chandni Raat mein ek baar unko dekha hai.
Chaudhavi ka Chand ho ya aaftab ho

The list then continues till its 6 PM in the evening and I moved ahead to call up CAB.

I want to be at home

Its cold here and I want a hot cup of tea, which mom prepares with ginger in it, along with hot Stuffed Aaloo ka Parantha (Approx. Eng. : Hot Bread stuffed with Potatoes).

Its lonely here and I want to be with my friends, who can sit besides me, saying nothing, just sitting and smiling.

I am waking up in between nights and I want to sleep for longer hours, without murming in middle of night. I want to sleep for whole night without waking in between hungary or thirsty.

I am sleeping in Hall, on the carpet, coz I donot get sleep on those bouncy beds, I want to sleep on the hardbed with light pillow under my head. I donot want to make pilliow of that thick book named "Applied Cryptography" or "Tannebaum" again in life.

I am working in huge Lab, with a setup of umpteen firewalls in front of me, configuring protocols, half of which, I donot know how to use. I donot want any of these.

I am sitting with people who donot know my language, they exchange notes with me all the time, But I cannot even pronounce there names correctly. I want to work with friends, shouting at each other, pinching each other and kicking each other while passing by.

I reach so called home, wondering what I will cook today. I want to reach home early in the evening and finding Mom has prepared Aaloo Jeera with Parantha along with Chai and Aam ka Achar (Fried Pototoes in Cummin seeds + Hot Bread + Tea + Mango Pickle).

I am talking too much whenever I meet a human who can understand my language. I want to sit back and listen for hours to any guy or gal who can speak for hours continuously.

I am wearing Swatch in my wrist, Van Heusen Shirt, Lui Phillip Trouser, Van Heusen Leather Belt, Reebok Shoes. I want khadder ka Kurta Pajama (Handmade Indian ethnic Attire), Chappal (Sandals) and No Watch and roam around with a stick in my hand on streets for hours.

I am thinking of running from here to escape. I donot want to think.

People come to me smiling and trying there best to make me comfortable. But I only want to be at HOME.

People say they come to me coz I always have smile on my face and they feel joy whenever they are with me. I want somebody who can reciprocate the same for me.

I have been writing long mails, holding very long chat sessions. I want to send hand written letters by post in envelops.

I have been hearing a lot about you, I want to meet you now.

YOU MIGHT WANT TO KNOW WHO IS SHE?

SHE IS SMILE. LONG LOST BELOVED OF MINE. I WANT HER BACK THIS VALENTINE.

Mere ashk hai isme

Mere ashk hai isme, Ye sharab ubal na jaye,
Mere jaam choone wale, tere haath jal na jaye

In Simple English

My tears are flowing in this wine, which may cause boils in it,
You hands might get burns, so be careful, whomsoever wanna touch my Peg.

O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...

On this Valentine....

O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...
O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...

Phoolon mein Kaliyon mein, Sapno ki galiyon mein, tere bina kuch kahin na.
O saathi re tere bina bhi kya jeena, Tere bina bhi kya jeena.

Her dhadkan mein pyas hai teri sanson mein teri khushboo hai
Is dharti se us amber tak meri nazar mein tu hi tu hai
pyar ye toote na...tu mujhse roothe na, saath ye choote kabhi na...
O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...

tuj bin jogan meri raatein, tuj bin mere din bunjare,
Mere jiwan jalti dhuni, booje boojhe mere sapne saare
Tere bina meri, Mere bina teri ye jindagi jindagi na...

O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...
O Saathi Re Tere bina bhi kya jeena, tere bina bhi kya jeena...

!! Put some fire in fire !!

What makes Fire so different from others ?

Is it the fire it carries inside which makes it different ?
Is it the way we perceive it, visualise it ?

Isn't some other phenomenon are too close to it.

How about Pain, Anger, Desire, Lust, Delight, Joy, Hate, Love, Life, Peace, Cherish and many others (Hey List some ?)? Are they any way different from Fire.

So next time when you are about feel any of there, Put some more fire into it, Believe me you shall love it. ;-)

So put a little more love today in Love,
a pinch of Pain in Pain,
a pinch of anger in anger,
a pinch of desire in desire,
a pinch of lust in lust,
a pinch of hate in hate,
a pinch of life in life,

A Pinch of Love in Love,
A Pinch of FIRE IN FIRE.

!! Remembering Him !!

He used to come to our home, even in late nights,
He used to smile whenever he touched the ground, after 6 month long trips in Cargo Ships
He used to enjoy the "Dhabe ki Chai" with me any time,
He used to think with me to write answers to the ISB questions,

We used to exchange notes and vow that we shall write original answers,
We vowed that someday we shall together trimph over the world and smile together.

We walked together at 5 am in the morning to escape from Sleep, coz we were awake together whole night making final blow, 3 days before CAT 2003.
We talked about insecurities in Life together for hours and hours.
We watched "Love Actually" together at PVR and then I smoked, and he gazed and smiled saying that he is blessed, he has shortlisted someone to marry.
We appeared for CAT, XLRI together and laughed sarcastically for blowing up our chances.

He used make fun of life & tried his best to live life king size.

He was scheduled to get married last month in January.
He was shot dead in front of his home a week before his marriage on saturday.
We talked on mobile for an hour, a day before on friday night discussing about the Gifts and Honeymoon locations.

He was my MOHIT GARG - Friend of MINE.

Mohit, I didn't had guts to call your home, next morning after you were shot. I hope you understand.

Mohit, you still live !!

!! Mohe Bhool Gaye Sanwariya !!

So Folks Here it is.

Film: Baiju Bawra; Casting: Bharat Bhushan, Meena Kumari; Singer: Lata Mangeshkar; Lyrics: Shakeel Badayuni; Music: Naushad

Mohe Bhool Gaye Sanwariya, Bhool Gaye Sanwariya
Mohe Bhool Gaye Sanwariya, Bhool Gaye Sanwariya
Aavan Keh Gaye, Ajahu Na Aaye
Lini Na Mori Khaberiya,
Mohe Bhool Sanwariya, Bhool Gaye Sanwariya.

Dil Ko Diye kyun Dukh Bireh Ke,
Tod Diya kyun Mehel Bana ke,
Aas Dila ke O Bedardi
Fer Li Kahe Nazariya,
Mohe Bhool Gaye Sanwariya, Bhool Gaye Sanwariya.

Naina Kahe Ro Ro ke Sajna,
Dekh Chuke Hum Pyar Ka Sapna,
Preet hai Jhooti, Preetum Jhoota,
Jhooti Hai Saari Nagariya
Mohe Bhool Gaye Sanwariya, Bhool Gaye Snawariya.

Here is a English Translation for this all time greatest Senti Song in Hindi. (Apologies for poor translation, coz I cannot bring out the pain in this song in this english version, I shall try to post it again)

My beloved cannot recall me, beloved cannot recall me,
He promised to come, but even today he didn't arrived,
Didn't even took a news about me.
My beloved cannot recall me, beloved cannot recall me,

Why my heart has to bear so much pain of sepearation,
Why this castle is broken on generation,
O Ruthless, Thou was the one who gave me hope,
and now why have you pulled away your sight from me.
My beloved cannot recall me, beloved cannot recall me,

O My Lord, even when lamenting my eyes shiver me,
and say that they have seen enough of this dream of love.
This love is a Deceit, Dishonest is my lover,
and this whole universe is unreal.
My beloved cannot recall me, beloved cannot recall me,

!! Let Life Live Me !!

There was a phrase like this in a song in the Movie "Rog". The was about the gorgeous actress in the movie ;-)

I won't be talking about the movie in here, rather I shall write about the feeling associated with this phrase.

Let life live me or say for a being generic Let life live the individual. Seems a little reversal of roles. What do we hear generally, Its just vice versa.

Its the individual who lives the life not the life lives the individual.

But just think a little and visualise How great that person shall be, for whom it can be said that It's the life who lived him/her - in Hindi "Jindagi ne Jiya Usko".

Think a bit more and you shall feel the depth of life.

Finally I got what I desired. I desire the life to live me.

!!Choker Bali !!

Yesternight saw this movie "Choker Bali". Since then I am in deep thoughts.

Who is She ?
Why is She like the way she is in the novel & in the movie ?
Whom did Rabindranath Tagore 'Gurudev' had in his thoughts when he created her ?
If she had been real, Will she be so beautiful as depicted in the novel ?

She (Choker Bali - Boudini - Aishwarya Rai) had a unique thought process in her mind. She despite being a widow engages in sexual intercourses with the husband of her friend "Bali" (Riya Sen) and wants to marry the other guy and in the climax leaves all, whom she loved, wanted with all her heart and soul, just like one discards a old cloth.

Once one gets himself associated with the characters in the movie, He/She is bound to get senti in the last. The feeling is unexplainable.

There no sorrow or tears in the eyes when you watch the climax, there is only a feeling of LOSS. You from the inner core of your heart want "Choker Bali" to be happy, You want from your soul that She should also feel a moment of joy in her life.

But then the feeling of helplessness is there. you cannot change the end, coz its been written by Gurudev that way. So what you do in the last. You just woke up your lord and pray that this should not happen to anybody.

I got senti coz I associated myself pretty soon with "Choker". I myself fear "loneliness" and " "helplessness" the most and there I was watching her fighting with both of these phenomenons

I still need to get myself comfortable with my fear and with "Choker Bali".

Life is so #ifconfig

So how is life ? People ask me a lot here. It seems like a 2nd next used sentence after "Hello !!" or simple "Hi !"

I am still searching for the true answer. Today while I was out for a smoke, this thought came to my mind, Isn't Life is getting so #ifconfig.

#ifconfig Even_If_Dead netmask As_If_Alive up
#route add default gw Nxt_Gal_Who_Sucks

So your interface is up, if you properly know what your IP Addresses are and you have proper gateway & routes configured.

Last but not the least thy should have cable plugged in with LED (LIVE EVENIF DEAD) glowing. This shall atleast ensure that your are connected.

What makes the situation even better in accepting life like that, is that you can blame anything which is not happening the way you desired t the Kernal Code itself or the design.

This article might bump you off your chairs thinking "what the heck this hirdu is writing ?"

All of a sudden from senti stuff to this synonymising (Self Created, donno if any such word is there in English) life with a Ethernet Card port.

Anyhow I told you before "Life is so #ifconfig" ;-)

I have started thinking like Garfield now ?