They judge me, before they even know me - Shrek

It happens all the time, and this time again it has happening...I can't help it...I have started believing that I share the same fate as that of "Shrek" in the movie...

Now since I can't help it...I have started enjoying it :)

"anyways...before you get any ideas...I do not look like Shrek..."

प्रसव वेदना

प्रसव वेदना
आखिर क्या होती है ये प्रसव वेदना? प्रसव वेदना वो दर्द है जो हर माँ को होता है, जब वो जन्म देती है. जब इस संसार में आगमन होने वाला होता है एक शिशु का.
कैसी होती है प्रसव वेदना ? क्या ये कभी कोई पुरुष महसूस कर सकता है?

जब पहली बार ये सवाल उठा था, तो मेरे पास कोई जवाब नहीं था...या फिर शायद मैं भी ये मान लेने को राज़ी था कि नहीं, एक पुरुष कभी ये महसूस नहीं कर पायेगा, क्यूंकि वो तो जन्म ही नहीं देता...

पर आज शायद ये कुछ ऐसी ही वेदना मैं स्वयं महसूस कर रहा हूँ... नहीं, मैं किसी शिशु को जनम नहीं देने वाला हूँ....मैं तो अपनी जीवन यात्रा के एक पड़ाव पर खड़ा हूँ...मैं तो यहाँ जन्म देने वाला हूँ अपने अगले दशक कि यात्रा को...मेरे सम्मुख कुछ यक्ष प्रश्न हैं...जिनके उत्तर बिना प्रसव के जन्म नहीं लेंगे...

प्रसव हमेशा किसी शिशु का हे नहीं होता, प्रसव होता है विचार धारा का, और जब भी ऐसा होता है, प्रसव वेदना से हर वो व्यक्ति पीड़ित होता है, जो उस विचार धारा के आगमन कि प्रतीक्षा में होता है.

The next steps for next decade

I am still pondering over the next steps for next decade...Just like the start of last decade..."No Plan is a Good Plan" is the current feel.

Today, at last I am settled for the date of next step.... the date is April 19, 2010 and next step is starting cleaning the toxic waste gathered in last 10 years...

More to be written on the date itself and more thoughts to arrive and written in here, to be forever...

The first Decade

This year will mark completion my first 10 years after college...Yes, 10 long years in software industry...

How do I characterize these 10 years, did I gained or did I lost...the more I am think on these...more confusing it becomes...

After 10 long years...I find myself, on similar cross-road, where I was standing, when I was about be start fresh from college...

I remember, I was about to leave college and there was no job at hand...I decided to prepare for CAT without any safety net :) full of zeal and enthusiasm...no second thoughts, on what will others think....In last 10 years...something has gone wrong somewhere it seems...somewhere I have started considering...what will others think..This is not what I wanted ...I want to be free...I want to be free of this burden of 10 years of experience ...I want to start afresh...

I still remember the fragrance of being fresh ....

Yes...this is what I am looking for...This is what will make me to live for many more decades...the thought of being fresh...

So folks ...

Here is new Hirdu...

Fresh... Juvenile...& interested....

Enjoy the Joy

As I begin to a newer start...a newer decade...I promise...nothing will be same to what has happened in last 10 years...It will be altogether fresh new face...fresh new path...fresh new goals and fresh new achievements.

जैसे

जैसे हीरे को हीरा काटता है

जैसे लोहे को लोहा काटता है

जैसे ज़हर को ज़हर काटता है

वैसे ही कुत्ते को कुत्ता काटता है

So dear if you have to fight a dog, deploy another dog... :)

Life mein "Tension lene ka nahin Dene Ka"

Learning from 1 week of introspection - "Life mein Tension lene ka nahin Dene Ka"...

This is what is real...The only thing one gets out of tension is health disorder...some way or the other the stress shows up in one's Medical Reports...

So doston
Agar Jeena hai Long, to phir Tension lena hai Wrong
Kya karoge lad ker her fight, agar Jeena ho jaye tight...

isliye aish sey jiyo and yaad rakho...tension lene ka nahin ...dene ka...

What's at stake ?

A "day" every day, no more no less.